Right this moment (not yesterday, and maybe not tomorrow) I am thankful. I have been reading COUNTLESS Psalms today and enjoying how David cries out to God constantly. It was comforting to read that even someone who’s heart was truly after God can still feel hopeless and lost and abandoned.
I have a unique, God-given opportunity to know Him better. All of what has happened in the last few months has been trying, hard, uncomfortable, and so many more words! I have been looking at all of this as a devastating, unfair situation. And, indeed it is. BUT, God doesn’t want me to wallow in that. He wants to offer hope and strength and comfort.
I have two options: lean into Him, or run away from Him.
God loves me enough to allow me to experience specific, unique, trying situations, because He knows it is an opportunity for me to learn how to trust and love and rely on Him for life. That is love. Not everyone finds themselves in the heart situation I am in. God is specific with His children. I am unique, and His love for me is unique. His pursuit of me is unique. That is so special and worthy of praise.
As for me, I am poor and needy, but the Lord takes thought for me. You are my help and my deliverer; do not delay, O my God! [Psalm 40:17]